A Bit of Positivity

Hey, why not, it's a Monday night and I've got nothing better to do - so why not share a bit of positivity hey! It would make a nice change Sarah.

Work was good today - really busy and lots to sort out, so I spent the day doing just that and not thinking about the op. Always a good thing. Especially as I had woken up with the same mood hanging over me as yesterday.

I have also been stuffing my face under the pretense of needing to put on weight before the op as I won't be eating for a while and will lose a lot. (Or as my beloved OH calls it Op Massive). It's not been a totally good thing as I'm mildly intolerant to dairy and I've got a bit bloated as a result - I look like I'm about 7 months pregnant and feeling a bit groggy. But other than that, it's been a good day - I've laughed several times and generally been a LOT more cheerful. Again not a huge coincidence that I listened to my Positivity app last night.

This afternoon I spoke to someone who has had a shunt put in (it's basically a tube that moves the cerebral spinal fluid away from the brain and into the abdomen so it can then leave the body for example, when the flow is abnormal - this is sometimes needed when there is a complication with the op I'm having). The shunt was put in for a different reason, 16 years ago, so it would have been pioneering then. He went to back to work very quickly because he didn't realise he wasn't supposed to. Just goes to show what you can achieve with a bit of PMA.

But the absolute highlight of today has been driving my car in my normal way. Let me explain. Right. The car likes to tell you when to change up to be economical I am told. This isn't particularly innovative gadget apparently, but it's something I've not had before. So I thought I would drive that way, which would also ensure I don't take it over 3000 rpm (check me out with my brummer knowledge), thus saving the new engine. Anyway I think it's fair to say I was a bit disappointed with the car last week. I was thinking it wasn't 'nippy', it wasn't that fun to drive and dare I say it, it was a bit sluggish. I was like this is just too big and lumbering, it's a boy's car, I want my BMW 120d coupe which is what I'd said in the first place, I don't care about not being able to drive in the wet / snow, or that it's totally impractical for taking friends and family or if we have children, in fact I'd sooner drive our Focus, the OH can take the Audi to work. Anyway today I decided to drive it to work in my normal driving style (still not taking it over 3000 rpm but not changing up to 6th gear at 37 miles an hour) and I was like 'hello'!!! The engine sounds uh-mazing, handling is awesome and it has some real go behind it. Now I know why I wanted the Audi - it wasn't just the LED headlights I promise (total lie). Anyway it was a real pleasure to drive to and from work in my usual style. It's not about driving fast, I'm not a total girl-racer, I was just finding it really unresponsive, whereas now I LOVE it. 7 more days of driving it, so at least I have discovered this in time. It's also really easy to park - said like a true girl.

This evening I had a great hypnotherapy / healing treatment and I have some new breathing exercises and techniques to take into hospital with me. I'm also going to write a little note to ask the nurses to remind me about my breathing and to put my headphones in so I can listen to my meditation apps. Which the therapist suggested as she used to be an intensive care nurse.

Some more stuff to feel positive about:
- Two of our beautiful friends are getting married on Saturday and I CANT wait to see them tie the knot. The OH is also an usher which is exciting - I am sure he will look gorge in his suit. I've never been to a winter wedding before either. My lovely SIL has leant me a really pretty dress to wear and I will be wearing one of my favourite pairs of shoes!
- I am seeing the consultant tomorrow so will hopefully get to ask all my outstanding questions which will be a good opportunity. I'm hoping he will tell us exactly what he plans to do in the op as there are a couple of options depending on what he finds etc. It would be good to get more of an idea, rather than going on what Google says!
- I have downloaded LoveFilm to watch on the iPad - v exciting
- I've had some great presents and cards and get well messages - I feel very loved!

And with that, I shall be retiring to bed to get some rest, everything is always better after sleeeeep.

A 100% more up tempo Sarah x
7 days and counting ;-)